i am restless

It’s April already? Happy April people.. 2007 seems to fly by. But I have been saying that every year for the past 3 years..

Creepily, April also makes me visualise my physician’s face. The vertically-challenged crazy one, who said I was doomed save for medication. Lately he has been causing me nightmares. Honest.

I was too busy (and too crackbrained) to remember that 2 April 2007 was an important date.

I was to go for a check-up yesterday but did not turn up as:
(1) I still miraculously have some medication left despite taking a 4 month supply i.e. up to end of March 2007;
(2) *lightbulb* Yikes! Issue (1) actually means that I have not been taking the meds religiously, which brings us to the next issues;
(3) I have not followed his advice to quit or cut down my smoking to at most 3 a day -- number taken from his cue that anything more than 3 cigs is heavy;
(4) I haven’t been following the advised healthy diet plan to a tee.

Naturally, I’m panicking. But I’m telling myself that I’m fine because I feel fine. I’m fine right? I am. I’m fine. Okay. I’m fine. Yes. I am fine.

But. There was That Thing that occurred in February that I should disclose to him. God knows WHAT he’s going to say is wrong with me.

Funny I’m restless over a scheduled I-want-to-see-your-progress check-up.

NOT funny haha. Obviously.