zzzzzzzzz

I am so unbelievably lazy nowadays it’s not funny. It offends me.. Am just in no mood to fervently attend to work-related matters. I just ensure I meet deadlines for the sake of it.

Anybody got any ideas how to rid of this phase?

Terdiam - Maliq & D'Essentials

mataku terus tertuju padamu
saat kulihat dirimu tersenyum
ingin aku menyapa
namun ku terdiam tak kulakukan

mungkinkah kau pun juga begitu
tahu kau masih malu mungkin
sungguh ingin ku sapa
namun ku terdiam tak kulakukan

apakah kau rasakan
getaranku pada dirimu
ku hanya duduk terdiam
menunggu untuk tahu namamu

ku menunggu untuk tahu namamu
namun ku terdiam tak kulakukan
mataku terus tertuju padamu
inginku sapa dirimu
namun ku masih malu tuk hampiri dirimu
diriku terdiam, aku menunggu, aku terpaku

have you ever?

Ever heard a tune and somehow you’re immediately transported back to that particular time in your life which was unpleasant? You’re sitting there thinking okay let’s just focus on the good, despite whatever happened, but the song goes on and on. More things come to mind. The moment which concerns the song; the conversation surrounding the song and the list goes on. Hey you’re only human. When you notice this unhealthy thing your head is doing, you feel thrown, because for sanity’s sake you shouldn’t be thinking about all that. You shouldn’t be prompted to pay a visit down bad memory lane – unless you choose to. You then proceed to give conscious instructions to your brains to not get carried away with your memories lest it will just rip you apart. Turn to putty.

Ever been moved by a song and the lyrics reflect your actual sentiment on an issue? When your friend tells you that a certain song is dedicated to you and thanks you for the friendship. When you reflect on what you’ve gone through and think “oh, so situations like that happen to other people too..”. When someone tells you a song is about exactly how he feels for you.

Ever listened to a melody so pleasing to the ear it makes you smile and lifts your mood? You find yourself reminiscing various moments of merriment. That outing during college; that 80’s song during your childhood; the first time you bump into that special someone; your first day at work; that choir try-outs in primary school; that summer; your first double espresso after walking around like a zombie due to pulling an all-nighter working on your assignment which earned you an ass-saving results; that night out when your friends act hilariously mental channeling Beyonce or Naomi or Adriana Lima (isn’t that every night out guys ;p hahahaa).

Ever seen a live performance and despite the musician being far from hot, you are smitten? Just because he’s first-rate – in your eyes, at least.

I “heart” music :)

'Femi is a Geordie

"He looks like a gorilla.."

Who cares? He could be related to the Johore Bigfoot for all I care. Since when whether you're good or not is dependant on what you look like? Yeah, I'm a chick and a hot striker would be nice to look at but he needs to be one that delivers. We desperately needed a striker, and finally after the whole dingdong-ing the past month, the agreement was signed. With Shearer’s retirement and Owen being out the whole season, our ONLY forward was Ameobi (somehow Luque can’t gel with the team). Satu je? Camana nak main bola?

Not anymore. Welcome, Obafemi Martins :)

(edit @ 1 a.m. on 28/08/2006: He got stretchered off the field during his debut.. bad omen?)

THE NARCISSISTIC CHOCPOT PART 2

Favourite Rockstar Supernova: Ryan Star

Favourite item of clothing: Footwear :)

What are you listening to right now? Maliq & d’Essentials, Zero 7, Sergio Mendes Timeless, whatever’s on Fly FM

Favourite sport to watch: Football

Favourite day of the week: Saturday

Favourite time of the year: The stretch from Chrismas Eve to New Year

How many times did you fail your driver's test? None

Favourite flower: Lilies – stargazer, calla

Lake, Ocean or river? Ocean

Favourite fastfood: KFC – if that’s considered fastfood. If not, McDonald’s.

Despised characteristics: Cockiness, Deceit, Insincerity

tight spot

Do you prefer this or that?

Everybody's different. I appreciate that fact. But when posed with the question whether I mind A or B when talking about a surprise meant for me, I am put in a tight position. How does one answer that question anyway?

Well, THAT is a surprise...

No 14

Courtesy of hollaback boi, my very early birthday present. Aren’t they the most adorable pair of flipflops you have ever seen?? I’m supposed to be the chick gaped at by all the monkeys.. hahaa..

Thanks doll, LOVES it!

Check these babies out at www.havaianas.com :)

Bag it!

Help. I'm missing a missing handbag. (YES, you read that right). It has been more than a month.

Where can it be? I’ve searched high and low for it. Where I keep my handbags. Nope. Where I keep my shoes. No luck there. My closet. No. My chest of drawers. Not there. Under the bed (in case I somehow kicked it off the bed in my sleep or something..). No. Inside my other bags. No such luck. My luggage. Nada. My laundry basket (just in case). Only laundry. My car. Not there either. I’m sure I didn't leave it anywhere public.

It is black nappa leather with apple green lining and gunmetal hardware - double Fs placed upside down forming a rectangle with apple green in between. A simple shoulderbag. It's hardly practical because it isn't roomy. Girls like to carry massive bags that can fit everything thinkable from safety pins to makeup bag to notepads to painkillers to pepper spray to bottled water to kitchen sink. Which could conveniently double up as a weapon to brutally whack assailants when the need arises.

But that isn’t the point.

The point is -- I love that bag. Despite its little-ness and impracticality. Despite using it at most twice a month. Despite not being the handbag du jour (that's to you hollaback boi :p). I love it because 1. it's mine 2. I love the apple green 3. I think it's timeless. All that's left of it is the dustbag. What a sad and pitiful sight. My Baguette!! Where is it? Any ideas? It's driving me crazy...

very noisy

OMG this constant shrill of drilling and renovation works in the office next door is REALLY pissing me off..

SERIOUSLY
…
..
WOULD
…
YOU
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PLEASE
…
..
STOP
…
THE
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F**KING
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NOISE????!!!

Hey, I sound crazy.. hahaha.

Have a good weekend people.

the powers that be

I did everything to ensure a thorough and complete getting-up for today’s submissions. One must always be ready. Allocated research topics, held discussions, considered views and authorities, tied up the relevant authorities to the facts and issues at hand, prepared arguments, compiled bundles.

Adjourned. Yet again...

*sigh*

i love cake

MBF’s birthday dinner was organised by a bunch of sick people. No, literally sick. Thanks AHP for your gracious efforts despite confident of being on the verge of fainting from high fever that very afternoon. The balloons and the Crown were just too cute.

A few days prior, the email came to us both. Looks like we’re both going to have to do this, AHP. AHP and I took the trouble to spread the word around and emailed everybody to RSVP so we could take care of the booking. Someone unknowingly cc-ed the email to MBF and there it was, all the plan in its minute details.. Oh well.

That Saturday night, despite feeling as if my head was going to burst open each time I coughed, I took with me my faithful bottle of Panadol and shawl, which proved to be useful later on as a blanket. It was a very fun, pleasant, laughter-filled casual dinner to celebrate Her Majesty the Queen’s birthday. Policeman was sweet. The Crown should really be handed to him for having to deal with the Queen. Hehe. We were taking quite a few photos but hollaback boi, your presence was terribly missed. No one would actually snap photos every 3 seconds, right? Wrong. You haven’t been introduced to hollaback boi. Posers unite!! I chose a cocktail for DD which I found out later that he hated. Ooops, I thought everybody loves kahlua.. And with a name like Screaming Orgasm, who would have thought it’s anything short of appealing?? Choonism brought his Taiwan artiste get-up for photos. With a face like that, darling, you really don’t need it! I caught Choonism and MBA staring – Hey!! What are you two doing? MBA was kind enough to give me a hug to feel better. Uscaaaary was not so scary that night. MOBF, LH and Ms O all came with their respective Bs. Aaaaaaaaaw… Ms O commented that MOBF and MOBFH look like they’re still dating :) Hahaa.. Cuteness. A, U and Akudia came for a bit as they had to be elsewhere prior. Ooo la la la was smart and early, also kind enough to help AHP with the bills. A little after 11pm, half of a twin and husband came to join us.

Après-dinner entertainment was Macau for a sing-a-long affair… it turned out to be a club at some points. And yup, I finally got to see the ever so famous fruit platter – it came with this little smoky thingie in some little jar placed together with the fruits. Purpose? Inexplicable…

I finally got home, still feverish, almost voiceless, with a damn sore throat, watery eyes and terrible flu. I just sank onto the bed and despite the state I was in, it was really so much fun to see everyone.

MBF, glad you enjoyed it dear!

guilty pleasure

It’s Friday? Already?? Where did the week go? Stress levels were high the past few days. The sick monster is rearing its ugly head again.. Tummy is aching. Sheesh.. So not on.

The only thing making me smile at the moment is the fact that I managed to complete the Geordies’ premiership fixture in my phone. No I’m no crazy extremist know-it-all fan but I just like to know when the matches are. And the results. And the scorer :) CAN THE SEASON START ALREADY???

Also, can the rumoured strikers and defenders just sign the agreements?? I can't wait..

21 candles

The phone rang. It was MBF. She didn’t sound like her usual self – troubled, upset, sad. She told me. From where I was, I took the next train to Coventry, a long ride which involved me freezing my arse during 2 changes in some ghost-town stations in the middle of bloody winter. Already there when I finally arrived, she saw me, managed a grin and gave me a bearhug.

*

Our first encounter was at college. She barged into the room. As she literally threw her belongings on the table, my first thought was OMG this is going to be one grumpy person to live with...
BTW it was due to PMS ;p

*

A talent scout stopped us in a mall and tried to convince us to go for casting. She was certain we weren’t locals. We looked at each other and burst out laughing. How lame was that? She must have been desperate. Honestly.

*

I had completed my pupillage when I found out she was finally coming home. She wasn’t sure of the exact date. One afternoon, I was out of the office running errands in the city and when the lift doors opened, we were looking at each other. What were the odds?

:)

Ultimately, she's a caring and terribly sincere person with a big heart and a beautiful soul. You just have to get to know her well enough to enjoy the privilege :)

MBF, these snippets make me smile and hopefully they do the same to you. Have an amazing 365 days ahead for your 21st darling ;) You're truly a gem. My sincerest best wishes always. Muaks!

offside

He came up to us. Bizarre. He greeted SNB and they shook hands. They exchanged pleasantries. He then said hi to me and extended his hand. Dumbfounded, I stared at it. After all, which part of I refuse to have anything to do with him didn’t he comprehend?

What do I want to do with this extended hand? Do I make a scene? Walk away? Chop it off?

After a few seconds of deliberations, I quietly shook it. He held it for a tad bit longer and squeezed it.

For a moment I was mystified. What was that all about?

An Offside. That's what it was.

p/s: SNB, you owe me a Geordie match trip! Woohoo!!!

poo-less

At approximately 12:25 MBF rings me at the office and before I could say anything she goes: “Chocpot I think Anuar Zain has migrated lah because he is no longer in the scene nor has he released any new albums. What do you think ah?”

Right.

“Uhm MBF do I really need to ponder about that now? Work maybe?”

“No, REALLY, it is a huge waste to the entertainment scene both locally and internationally. Where is he Chocpot, where?”

Righttt.

“Uhmmmmm.. really.. nanti okay we chat about this” (read: I’m not bothered and I don’t know and really, I don’t even want to think about it.. *evil laugh*)

She is a super huge mega fan of his. But sweetheart, a signed cd is NOT a sign that he loves you alone okay.. Seriously.

Somehow I managed to swerve the conversation to the happenings during her weekend as she was away and I filled her in with what I got up to.

“What Chocpot, you washed the car?? What did you use?”

Hmm.. scrubbing bird poo and some other icky bits off the car does not amount to actually washing the car kan? And I couldn’t find any car shampoo in the house so I used Loreal Elseve Colour-Vive Care Shampoo. If it’s good enough for my pink hair, it should be good enough for my green car. No? She thought I was insane. [Anybody knows if this is goes against the carcare commandments or something?]

Well, the car did actually look worst after (not because of the hair shampoo, but because I realised it involved a bit of hard work so I just sprayed water after I was done and left it that way, AND I couldn’t be arsed to go to the carwash..). But it was without a huge splat of poo on its hood. Mission partially accomplished...

"Ala Chocpot it's my lunch hour already lah.."

Phew..

Que Sera Sera

There is this little item of mine that I really like. It was a surprise gift. Very pretty in cutesy babycolours. It probably cost the person peanuts. Despite that, what I felt during that period coupled with the surprise and excitement when I pulled it out of its dustbag -- distinctly memorable.

Things took quite a number of turns (including u-turns and circling around roundabouts) and plunged for the worst. Beyond imagination. It was an extended emotional rollercoaster. Once bitten, twice shy. Twice bitten, pure torture.

So I mulled over the item. Shall I get rid of it? Considering I couldn't even look at it, what's the use of keeping it?

...should i? or not?

...

think!

...

grr...

Having spent my limited braincells and waaay too much time on the issue, I’ve finally decided to keep it. I figured it is a reminder of how wonderful someone can make me feel out of his kindness and fondness of me. Whatever the end result is. That train of thought should stop there. It's now tucked away, somewhere I hope I'll forget soon enough.

The gift - Would you keep it or ditch it?

sleeping giant

The medication I was prescribed made me very drowsy. I was told to get a lot of rest. All I did was sleep in ridiculous proportions until I felt extremely useless. No sight of eucalyptus tree anywhere so I did not subconsciously chew on its leaves thus did not officially metamorphosed into a koala. Can't wait to fully recover...

I checked the internet -- the Geordies will buy more players. (Kuyt? Wasn’t that rumour going around since like aaaaages ago.. Thomas Gravesen? From Real Madrid? Really? Ronaldo? Hee hee.. that’s a bit far fetched kut..) My sleeping giant.. H’oway the lads!!!

Wake up already..

in the pursuit of happiness

Funny when you've decided to not give a toss anymore, a simple act makes you smile and you want to hold on for just a little bit more. Is it worth it? Is it against your better judgment? Who knows..

sick :(

you sound like shit.
yah lah you sound terrible.
you should go drink hot soup.
do you have a fever?
you're not smoking are you?
go see a doctor!
you sound terrible.
what are you doing in the office?
do you have a lot of work, if not you should go home and rest.
GO!!

Grr.. Can someone come fetch me and send me to the doctor's and buy me cheesecake and send me home?