fight or flee

Finally. Some space to breathe and not attend to things due 5 minutes ago and its siblings and little cousins.

No, I will not delete my blog, thank you very much. It has been a while that yesterday I even wrote an email perhaps passable as poetry. In retrospect I cringe. I need to blog.

My feline love is in the hospital. Poor fat baby. Have been visiting him every night for the past 3 nights. He’s on the drip and have had a cathether placed in his wee wee organ, which was only removed yesterday. Though he looked better yesterday, it was akin to visiting a highly drugged up being. He would fall back asleep every 3 seconds -- but at least he looked comfortable, considering. They are currently monitoring his bladder thus his belly fur has been shaved to facilitate the x-ray and ultrasound. Sob sob. My little lamb. Hopefully he gets better fast. I miss him terribly.

I also turned a year older recently. It was a nice cosy celebration which was also a surprise one for one of my bestest boo (yay!), chocolate cheesecake (yum!), candles (*blow*), supercute turquoise and brown cupcakes (loves!), superthin candles (*blow*). No bubbly though. Only love, affection and friendship. And somehow the topics hovered around puberty and sex and black curtains. My utmost terima kasih for your time and effort and gifts.

Talking about turquoise cupcakes and shades of blue, my most jawdropping pressie was from PO. She sent me home (this is rare..) and handed me the small paperbag which contained my gift. One sight of it and I was transported to shallow-ville in an instant. The idea that she might want to spend 8k for the diamond horseshoe I have been eyeing for years did cross my mind, but logic had to come back into the picture. I held the babyblue box tied with a white ribbon and just stared at it and her. The whole unwrapping was an experience. I discovered then that a surprise tiffany is a more wholesome experience compared to one that you are at liberty to choose :) She got me a gorgeous Elsa Peretti round pendant necklace -- the one I looked at a little too long when we went for our mad window shopping outing. And she noticed. Aaaw.

This birthday I gave myself a gentle reminder that one should never say never, as it may bite you in the arse. I am grateful for all the love I am surrounded with, happy with my own person -- who I am, in the midst of becoming and aspire to be, and hopeful that I continue having the patience and resilience to overcome glitches.

And always fight. But when you are absolutely certain it is not worth it, flee.