time bomb

time bomb
1. a bomb constructed so as to explode at a certain time.
2. a situation, condition, etc., resembling such a bomb in having disastrous consequences in the future.
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.0.1).

Yesterday was mentally exhausting. This, actually, is an understatement.

After severe procrastination, a flash of bravery and further feet dragging, I gave myself a kick in the butt and finally mustered enough courage.

To be honest I did somewhat prepare myself for not-so-great-news, despite secretly hoping that all will be well. I was not that lucky.

He gave me the bad news in its raw form. I made it known to him that he was instilling mammoth-like fear in me to which he flatly said he is only stating a fact. “With your family history…” He continued his factual findings for the next 30 minutes which left me feeling as if I was literally hanging by a thread.

Perhaps consultants need to be sent for some sort of PR refresher course. Lesson 1: How to break unpleasant news to one who is obviously terrified.

He then wrote some notes.

High risk for CAD.

Time bomb.

Underline.
Underline.
Circle.

Righttt.

I so didn’t need to see that whole act of writing, underlining and circling.

As if that was not enough to handle in one day, I discovered some other unpleasant news in the late afternoon. Well. One has a right to its own opinions, however distorted they are.

It seems that to a few individuals, I’m a time bomb. In more ways than one.

*tick tick tick tick tick...*