Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell
Blue skies from pain
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish
How I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl
Year after year
Running over the same old ground
What have we found?
The same old fears
Wish you were here

This is the lyrics to one of my favourite songs.

Songs are subject to personal interpretation and it took me a while to appreciate the words. This song is special and it makes me want to listen to it repeatedly. It IS a sad song, but I think it’s superb, do have a listen to this song -- Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd.

To me this song is about internal conflict regarding absence and how to cope with it. The sound and the lyrics both astoundingly manage to form the overall sense of loss and emptiness. It evokes a kind of miserable yet mellow emotion. No complicated layers of music, yet amazingly beautiful in its simplicity. It just makes me want to feel…

Misjudgment and absence.

Choices made based on what one knows. But usually there are more to it than what one knows.

Choosing Death; it forces the living to consider the options and make choices. Yet the living is torn between moving on or dying, because the dead is terribly missed.

Their souls are finding a way to be together, but failing.

That's what I think. What do you think?

(And no, I'm NOT under the influence..)

Well, have a great weekend!!!

updates

I’ve been asked why I haven’t been updating my blog.. Too many things are going on in my life now and I just can’t decide what to blog about. Or maybe I’m just lazy. Or maybe I’m in denial. Or maybe currently I’m sloth-like in the thinking department..

Okay, until I get industrious again, this is what's going on --

(1) it’s sunny blue skies in the mobile-phone department;

(2) have annoying teriyaki boyz song as ringtone;

(3) have developed a strange fondness towards mineral water;

(4) am currently in love with Tompi’s album but not keen on his slang in the English songs;

(5) have re-started re-reading The Zahir (sorry MBA.. I’ll finish it this time around..);

(6) have realised there’s actually a big difference between a tinted lip balm and lip gloss/stick;

(7) have re-discovered that sometimes the most sane thing to do is to be happy with the present as opposed to, even the least bit, holding on to the past (no matter how good the good times were) and secretly wishing to experience it again;

(8) have re-discovered that sometimes the equally sane thing to do is to be happy with the present as opposed to hating the past (no matter how repulsive the bad times were);

(9) am finally entertaining the thought that 18 pairs of Havaianas is perhaps an ickle bit unwise;

(10) can’t count for nuts! Thank God for MBF to convert those many many zeros..

(11) have developed some sort of understanding of my new hair;

(12) have already found my missing Fendi about 3 weeks back [check out my 19th August 2006 entry if you don’t know what I’m talking about..]

(13) have turned down an offer from the Jedi Master;

(14) do NOT FANCY gado-gado even if i tried;

(15) have been reminded that you never ever know everything THERE IS to know and you never really know everything you SHOULD know;

(16) roadusers are more courteous during Ramadhan, somehow.

birthday break

i looove bali :)


sunset @ kuta beach


@ old kerajaan ubud


surfer dude @ kuta beach ;)


carvings


kecak dance @ uluwatu


our temporary crib


pura tanah lot


uluwatu sunset


barong dance @ batubulan


nusa dua

it's a mobile tragedy

“Hello? ….Helloo? ….HALLAAAO??”

This repeated for a few times. I got fed up. Convinced it was MBF’s phone going mental again, I confidently texted her to scoff at her mobile. “Eh what’s wrong with your phone ah?” I mean, her phone has been known to go cuckoo several times. I know for a fact that she’s meant to send it in for service but has yet to. She cunningly ignored my annoying question and instead replied saying that she was on her way to the gym. We were texting each other and from there I assumed that my phone was working fine.

Later, I received a few calls and tried to make some but encountered the same problem. “Alamak.. is it my phone?”

At my most technical-savvy echelon, Standard Operating Procedure is to reboot. Usually I haven’t the slightest idea what to do to fix it (read: I NEVER know what’s wrong in the first place). All the time I would reboot the item. Usually for me, problems are magically solved this way.

Still confident that nothing’s wrong with it, I did a soft reset. To my horror, nothing the least bit magical occurred. I tried a few times, only to face the same sense of hopelessness.

My limited knowledge of all things technical provided me one final option.. *gasp*.. a full reset. OMG.. Restoring it back to factory setting feels like letting something familiar go and having to embrace and acclimatise yourself with something foreign. I backed it up and after a long deep breath – did the dreaded full reset. Results? Except making me feel as if my phone had suffered memory loss and forgotten my preferred settings, nothing constructive was forthcoming.

I brought it in to the customer service centre and despite insisting that it is a disaster of major proportions, I was told to have the phone looked at and leaving it there. After pacifying me, they promised to fix it within 3 days and they will get in touch with me once it is ready. And no, they don’t provide spare phones. Despite them being apologetic, this is really absurd considering the phone is still under warranty.

At the outset I thought it might be peaceful to be without a mobile. After all of 2 long hours, I had already changed my mind. I mean, seriously… I need it. MM is charitable enough to let me use her basic but reliable phone in the meantime.

I tried my luck ringing them but apparently it is still in troubleshooting stage. They better fix it by the third day else I will shoot somebody…

if only

Sometimes it hurts to know the truth. It also hurts to cause it to another. Hurts even more when resolving it is not a mutual option.

Seven days and counting…

reality bites

I stumbled across a somewhat interesting cum bizarre piece in The Star this morning.

A Bidayuh couple was taking shelter in a hut during a storm and the husband died after getting struck by lightning. She left the body alone for more than half a day. Initially I thought she was too distraught to come to terms with the fact and the manner of which he passed. Apparently it is their belief that if someone is struck by lightning and the body is left untouched for a while, that person will come back to life.

I then thought, how bizarre... I cannot imagine how one can just look at one’s husband who just got struck by lightning and died in front of your eyes and not touch him? For 15 hours? Has she no feelings at all?

But then again, I’m not Bidayuh and I don’t think the wife even knows what the yardstick is for “a while” (to leave him untouched, in order to make him come back). Poor lady.. It must be really heartbreaking to be a spectator of the whole incident and there you are all of 15 hours just looking at him wishing hard that he will come back to life.

This little piece of news just shows how powerful beliefs are.

Personally though, the bigger task is to think and not blindly believe. One’s beliefs may change but reality stays. And most times it bites you in the ass...

just friends

I watched Just Friends yesterday. Ryan Reynolds is HOTTT. (He's Berg in 2 guys a girl and a pizza place). Anyway, it’s a movie about a high school geek who was secretly in love with his best friend. His written love confession fell into the wrong hands and was made fun of. Scarred, he left his hometown and became supersuccessful and of course, became a player. To cut things short, after 10 subsequent years he ended up in his hometown and met her. He still felt something for her. They agreed to go out for a day date -- it did not go well. After walking her to the door, he went for the kiss. She went for the hug. They were then caught in a kiss-hug limbo type of thing and hilariously he ended up shaking her. Bear in mind he's a player. It was a riot! I was laughing my head off.

Then, haha I’m not going to burst the bubble. Though I thought it was abruptly ended, it was fun. Go watch it :)

p/s: Congratulations to the proud parents of lil baby ZHHZ :)